Thursday, October 19, 2017

I feel a change coming on

Changes are coming. To what, I am not sure. But an early part of any change is letting go of the past behavior/ actions, and perhaps doing something else.

Cognitive therapy, as describe has three loci: thinking, behavior, and emotions. Yet when I look at my cognitive process in meditation, there are four parts: thinking, behavior, emotions, and beliefs. Attach the body and we have the Buddhist five aggregates. Cognitive therapy ignores beliefs, yet that is the easiest to change, the fastest to change, and perhaps the most unforgiving part of the thinking processes. When I adopted the belief that wheat has no place in the human diet, wheat and wheat products stopped being part of my diet, yet I still find I consume wheat as a filler in sausages, or did. Yet no wheat is a belief, not just thinking. Beliefs are thoughts that we do not question, they are givens, and are not yielding to pressure the same way a thought is. Perhaps this is a distinction without a difference, or not. But there is a distinction, for when eating something is considered to be not even possible, the problem just goes away.

Some retired persons can simply go home, sit down and do nothing, watch TV etc. Spend no money, and be happy doing nothing. Not I. I need thing to do, things to think about, places to go, and the like. I do not need other people much; they are just drags on my freedom. I cannot express many things without creating offense, so I keep silence, and just go away. I like to be right, and know that I am right, more or less. But I need to be active at something that I enjoy, or at least can tolerate. There are many things that I do not like, and other things that I cannot do because of interference from others, who shall not be named, but she who must be obeyed.

Opinions as these are not popular, but once we have them, what do we do? The world is overpopulated when we use Co2 level as a guideline. This guideline influences how I feel about the third world, and the US. The logic is indisputable, as is there is absolutely no evidence of any god, but masses of evidence that people have long held a "belief of god(s)".

Pushing of gods and/or religion onto seniors seems to be in fashion at all the local seniors centers. I just find such behavior to senior abusive.

But if we consider the senior abuse line, they listen but do nothing, as in the case of my brother in law. The natives harasser him, but the RCMP will do nothing. I offered to let him live here, but he does not want to leave the town. He did put his house up for sale, but the town has become native, and is a dyeing Saskatchewan small town, so sale will be slow. Oh well, he is of the wife's family and was among the "comes with."  The town has lots for sale for 100$ if you are willing to build within one year. His old house is just that, old, but functioning. He has stopped paying taxes also, because the natives are getting is money first, but he is unable to say no to the beggars/harassers. Oh well, it is his life.

So here is the coming change perhaps:

If obesity is largely psychological, and we are being influenced by opioid peptides in food, are the cravings that I feel just the driving force of opioid addiction, and the hunger of not eating just normal hunger from not eating? So I am left with two driving forces, hunger and opioid addiction.

So opioid peptides in food are from wheat, dairy products. Ground meat products often contain both milk proteins and wheat filler. So then I am left with solid meat and vegetables as before.

I know this to be true, but am as yet unsure how to apply it unless I am gone from home most of the time. I cannot not eat and sit at home, but I have little choice but to sit at home. My right hip is in too bad of condition to just walk, and archer is OK for a few hours, but that is the extent of my pain endurance. Oh well, in the end we all just die anyway.


Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Let the dervishes whirl

Societal Change

Is it a process or does it just evolve? The internet has grown, first by a plan, and then it was set free with many people adding to the system, without much control... just like well, a weed, but it has purpose and use and value; yet there is much bullshit masquerading as real and valuable. But the growth rate is far faster than societal change, yet these two are so similar.

When we start to analysis the content, we immediately see in both, the width of the "bullshit bands", for the lack of a better way to describe the volume of false and questionable information, flowing in both systems. Bullshit has now a definition; stuff that nobody cares if it is truthful or not, just about the volume. Loud and big, bold, and runs over reality and truth.

Ultimately, it is all about cleaning the garbage from our minds. Obesity is about wrong beliefs about what should be eaten an why. It is also about eating less than our physical body demands. Recovery is all about learning how to reach satiation, with less food than we would like. It is learning to starve ourselves down to "normal" weight, and maintaining that biochemical state, not allowing enough food to enter the body as the body would like, while knowing that usually the biochemistry wins. But all those who think it is personal choice please leave the building and fuck off forever. We are just responding to the biochemistry, and if your biochemistry does not have this problem, you have no right to criticize those of us who have over excited hormones. The biochemistry always wins.

Within society there is wrong information, and finding and removing that information is a big part of life growth. Religion is all wrong, as it is based on a wrong concept. So what is to be believed? Politics is questionable, sports... well it is entertainment and a bit of "professional",aka, they make money off it, and then there is the recreational exercise... which we all need exercise... if we do not get it at work. But when the pain starts, it screws everything.

Society needs to change, one person at a time. It is us that must change, and let the world flail about. But what is society, and what is entertainment business profit driven promotion, all above society, but not really part of society? and what of those people caught in the spin of the political / marketing business machinery, entertainment creation bullshit generation machine? Let the dervishes whirl overhead.

Friday, October 13, 2017

Obesity is a psychological problem

If I were to eat only 1800 calories a day, I would not have a weight problem, but since I am unable to do that, it is a psychological problem. Could it be any more clear?

We have scales and good data as to caloric density on every package.

But the medical industry as not figured out how to fund the treatment of psychological issues, beyond those who have some form of insurance, and have no clear and simple treatment that can be demonstrated to work. Cognitive therapy shows the most promise, but what is the correct point of view? How much help is a mentally fucked up councilor? How few councilors are not fucked up? Have I ever met one? No.

Primary Care says cravings are caused by emotions. But the craving can arise directly from the situation, what ever that is. So when I walk by the refrigerator, I want to eat, when I see food, I want to eat, when it is breakfast time, lunch time, supper time, TV commercials, and whatever, I want to eat. McDonalds, Tim Hortons and  the like do not effect me in this way as they do not serve real food. As the French say, as comes the food, comes the appetite, or something like that.

So the whole thing is about not responding to my cravings, which are now the first and only reaction I have from many situations.

But I need to starve to lose weight, or should that loose weight because we do not want it to be so tight. Yet primary care says do not starve, because it damage the metabolism, but it does what it needs to do. So they are unwilling to recommend the only thing that works because it also does damage.

But when we realize that overeating is a psychological problem, does that change the emphasis and provide a different solution?

I spent the first 26 years of my life hunting for food, always finding excess. It was that natural food hunter in me that created the problem. I was on diets most of that time between, and by that time I had done 5 or six deep gain/lose cycles... most of a hundred pounds each time. I had no knowledge about how to eat right. That knowledge is not publicly available even yet, from the authorities. Some of us have figured out what is more likely to be correct, but the public authorities have issue with our plan, and it does not consistently work well, and is difficult for some to adhere to.  

Wednesday, October 11, 2017

Oh, really

Leduc Primary Care, whatever they are called, is putting on the Craving Change series again. I am attending, with the hope that I can pick up on something that I have missed, elsewhere, along the way in my studying this issue.

So the dietitian claimed the hunter gathers hunted dinosaurs...

She seemed claimed that when food was short, we put on weight, and while food was plentiful we lost weight. Perhaps she was trying to to say our bodies are more efficient when food is short, and less efficient when food is plentiful, which is even a stretch. After time, perhaps this is true, but that has nothing to do with cravings.

Their ultimate claim, so far, is that emotions cause cravings, and if we remove the emotion... by dealing with it the craving will not bother us.

But cravings can also be generated by... well... biochemistry, and a craving can be just a craving, just as hunger can be generated prematurely. So some of us must learn to live with hunger, and cravings, while not eating.  

Monday, October 9, 2017

Maintaining Serotonin

Maintaining Serotonin

So how does one maintain a sufficient and adequate level of serotonin to stay in a satisfied and contented state of mind? The government and industry does not want that, it kills the intensive to buy products which kills the economy. It would be disastrous to get all of the people into that state, but I, as an individual will have little effect on the economy. I am already cheep. So we each, as individuals, are into this "on our own", there is no help.

It is serotonin that keeps us in control, when it come to spending, and eating. That may be the key, according to Lustig and reason. 

Friday, October 6, 2017

Public Wrong Concepts

Free Will, is it real or imaginary? Sam Harris says we have little free will, as demonstrated by testing.

Two thirds of the population is overweight. Do they want to be, do not care, or have no free will? Or is it all chemical addiction... to our current foods?

The Stoics say we have control over our aversions and desires, while the Buddhist in non-self, five aggregates say we do not have control over our desires and aversions, only influences. Yet others Stoics say that if we do not resists, our desires will drag us down and pen us into styes, like pigs or wolves. That does not sound like control.

So it is likely that we only have influence over our desires and aversions, yet when we are going with our desires, life is easy; while when we are resisting our actual desires, life is a struggle. Kinda like riding a bicycle in a stiff wind. The trick is to get our desires to align with our rational plan. That is the problem. Our emotional desires often do not align with our rational plan. We have only influence over this, even though our ego says we have control, or we would like to believe we have control. To make matters worse, some may have control, and some may not. Perhaps control is a learned skill that some have and others do not. We may not be the same, some may have more control than others, or not, they may just believe they do because there desires match their reality better. Who really knows? Perhaps Sam Harris is right. It is all fixed by biochemistry. We have no choice.

We live along the lines our desires direct us down. We are guided in our decisions by our skills and desires. We are either successful or not. but we are directed forward... by our internal drive controlled by our desire, possible modified by our logical mind, perhaps not. So how would we need to live and develop this skill? 

First we need to remove the illusion of control... fiction. Is it our diet of fiction that is fucking with our minds. Electronic media, and the fiction content of all such that what is pushing desires off course? I expect there is a relationship between the amount of fiction in our lives and our overeating. Is it like the dog tied to the cart, being dragged along, where the cart goes.

Lustig makes it clear that contentment is what we need, which come from success, producing serotonin. Anxiety and cortisol, or pleasure and dopamine; both sets are antagonist of the central position of contentment. That is the problem in general, we are trying to stay on what has become a narrow ledge, where contentment was once a wide plateau. It is tough to walk on just the line.  Now the doing is the tough part.

Lustic new book,  Mind Hacking makes clear the three mind 'states' , dopamine, serotonin, cortisol... well those are really the hormones controlling, but all things do not work the same in all states. Free will, and the control of the rational mind are reduced in the dopamine and cortisol rich stages; so we need to be in the serotonin stage to effect appetite control. Duh. What did I just say?

To have appetite control, we need to have our mind bathed in serotonin. This is the contentment, satisfied, stoic joy, endaimonia state of mind. So the trick is to maintain that state of mind under life conditions. I have never lived nor worked in such a state of mind. I would get nothing done. Oh well, I am retired now.  

Monday, September 25, 2017

Is overeating a form of mental illness?

Is overeating a form of mental illness?

I have no answer other than probably? It is a behavior driven by something, and that something does not appear to be physical, at least most of the time. In taking this problem apart, it could be mental, physical, environmental, or conditioned into our automatic responses, which should be able to be overridden with mental effort.

There is enough to demonstrate that some is physical, some is food knowledge, some environmental, but the big portion is just us and our mental issues, if we are actively searching for a solution. There are those too, which do not care or have just given up, and are resolved to relax, just as they are. 

There is no doubt, in my mind, that overeating is conditioned in response to stimulus. That stimulus includes placing our body in front of food, even seeing eatable food, perhaps TV food adds, perhaps even knowing that there is eatable food in the refrigerator... all stimulus. Thinking or talking about food, even writing this is a stimulus. Our conditioned response is to eat. Does that not describe mental illness???? 

So now that I have declared this to be mental illness, is there anything more know about the treatment? Well not much. From Lustig's work we know it is a shortage of serotonin, too much dopamine, cortisol, or a receptor problem... maybe or something else.

In my youth, overeating became a rational solution to the problem, maybe. It was rational to the child mind at least. Once that has become a conditioned response... to any stimulus... now what. Any kind of a aggravation, irritation, irrational person, and my automatic response was to eat, anything would do. So how does one overcome such a deeply conditioned response when we (I) live in such an irrational world?   First, there is no medical help.  This is not a recognized DSM V problem, there is no mental treatments.

There are few psychologists that offer treatment for eating disorders; one that does is a cousin of mine, she appears physically to have overcome her food issues; however, she is a nut bag in other facets of her life. Her thinking system is just not compatible with my reality.

During my working life I did what was necessary to make a living most of the time, then for a while I only took projects for selected good clients. I go through my working life, but then... I retired and regressed. Now I need to make changes again. It does not matter, in the end we all just die anyway.

Monday, September 18, 2017

Statins and Sucide

Opinion, not advice.

Doc wanted me to go on statins, so I took another good look at the data. So what does it really show?

"So I have a thirty percent chance of dyeing in the next ten years."
What are the odds on statins?
"Well you should be on statins!"

First off there is a problem with the total numbers treated in the study. It seem that there are quite a few people who start but stop quickly. The study's seem to just cross these of as non compliant. Yet I here there are some that statins just do not agree with; instant muscle pain, other discomforts. They make a quality of life decisions, live without statins until death. Possibly quicker, or shorter life, but by how much, nobody knows. Well one study show days more. Days, not weeks.

Then there is the suicide rate; three times higher on statins, and the doctor says there is no causal link and eliminate the suicide deaths on the all cause deaths. So it becomes all cause but suicide. Bullshit. Suicide is a quality of life subjective decision. There were more people who felt there life was poor, not worth leaving on statins. So what is the issue? Muscle pain, loss of strength, actual muscle cell death, there is no reasonable recover from that. Well the statin folks want to eliminate them from the study. If included, the sales pitch data tanks.

So when one adds back the dropped out, and suicides, there is no benefit; it appears to be better to stay off statins. Even if one was to try them and stop if there are quick side effects, the benefit is not there... unless one had family history or real history. So where does that leave us /me?

Doctors and preachers are two of the oldest professions, along with robbin, looting, or the legal equivalent, soldiering. So after we realize that truth in the professions are less that virtuous, it is up to the doctors to provide studies to show benefit, else I call bullshit. Just like religion; provide evidence of a god or fo. Proof of a long history in a belief of a god just does not cut it. 

Sunday, September 17, 2017

Saturday, September 16, 2017

Dr. R Lustig, a new book

So now we are progressing down the understanding why it is so difficult to stay on a diet long term.

Dopamine. Serotonin. Insulin. And Others.

So we humans, long term, need a environment that causes us humans to generate more serotonin. OK. Serotonin is the contentment hormone.

Sunday, September 10, 2017

Do Churches Care about people
Now consider Carlton, Sask, or Greencourt, Ab, or Mayerthorpe, Ab, and those are just the ones that I know personally. The churches are just happy to walk away from the places that they burried the dead. Now let us take a better look at churches. First I will not say they are evil but I know they are. Lets divide up the instructions in the bible and see if the instruction does more good for the person or the church... and the church is what it is all about.

We are born without any knowledge, and we grow up searching for knowledge. Much of what we learn as children is just wrong, but we do not realize this... until we do. We are forced to unlearn, and learn something else, but that to may be wrong. So we learn to test, and find much is just assumption, truth is just a concept. Now what? There is no god, death is final. Many people have developed systems of beliefs, but morality can only be based on the present best practices. Keeping useless people alive is not moral by an objective standard if we include economy, or even just value in society, in an overpopulated world that we live in.

Honor our mother and father is a misleading commandment when our parents were wrong, cruel, abusive by the standards of present, but not far out of line by the standards of there time. So who does their beliefs benefit? Only the church. Those who wrote the bible knew a lot of psychology, or at least what worked, train them young and they will follow; they never learned the seven step of critical thinking; and when we do we call bullshit on religion. Religion is not just evil, but cruel, abusive, deceitful, infliction on the world. All religion should be eliminated and replaced with science and religion. Oh well, in the end we all just die anyway. A bible burning, roast wieners, or something.    

Saturday, September 9, 2017

Irma beats Cuba

Irma must be beating Cuba and the press has not said a word. Images of Irma show the eye just off the north coast of Cuba, and have for the last day, but not one word in the press. US controlled media have ignored the situation. So what is the situation in Cuba? It must be severe. 

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Thursday, August 3, 2017

Zuckers!! - Protein vs Atmosphere Co2

So the rising Co2 in the future will cause less protein in the food, but is this true in the past as well?

Is the rise of Co2 a root factor in the obesity epidemic? And then we can grow protein, but which protein?

Is this an answer, or just more noise?

In 1950 Co2 was at 280ppm, winters were cold here, snow was deep, and hogs could be raised on the local barley. By 1960, Co2 was at 315ppm, and hogs need concentrate, iron supplements, antibiotics, and other supplements to survive on barley. We blamed chemical fertilizer for the increase in carbohydrate and reduction of protein in the grain. But was it the Co2 effect? Now we are at 400+ ppm, and we have an obesity epidemic. Are these just Co2 rise effects?

Saturday, July 22, 2017

Zucker Problems

The Zucker rat is a genetically altered and/or selectively bread rat that overeats and becomes fat, without exception. It was reportedly developed for obesity and hypertension research, or at least selected for such research. Now what about us humans who seem to be unable to stop eating? Are we just like the Zucker rat, and have not enough will power to overcome the environmental supply of rich ready foods?

In historical days, most food had to be cooked before they could safely be eaten, and this limited our ability to graze on carbohydrate rich foods. Then came refrigeration, low cost sugar, mass produced cheap food products, and the problem came to the poor; the middle classes developed; now we have a full blown problem without the former physical controls. We are now 100% dependent on individual willpower and food knowledge. Carbohydrates should be fall back foods, not staples. Well, manufactured sugars for sure, should not be consumed by most of the adult population. Sugary foods should not be used as soothers of feeling replacements.

We humans are nasty to each other. We all are too sensitive, and we have too high expectations of each other. Philosophy says we should have compassion and consideration for others, preach peace, practice love, and all learn to get along with each other. We all need each other to a point, then we are too many. Stoics say we should live naturally, and practice virtues. Religions teach falsehoods, and not teach how to get along with nastys, deadbeats, abusers, uncaring and the scum of the earth. We need to learn that, and learn how to deal with those people in our lives who display those characteristics, even when they are parents, other family, guardians, teachers, peers, mates, and the like. Many of us just become nastys as that is what we mostly see, and do not know what we should be like. Many of us learned to eat rather than deal with the people. Now we need to learn to deal with the ignorant, unthinking and nastys.  Nasty people get nasty responses, silence maybe the best response.

Compassion with people who have not learned to be nice is all fine to say, but what about when they are obviously in the wrong. It is not just we are in conflict, but they are logically wrong. Not just my biases, but they are wrong, and happy, unwilling to change? Why should it bother me? Oh well, we just live until we die, and now there are too many humans.

Our ability to not be impacted by negative, and nasty people must be increased to the point we are not driven to seek food as relief. High insulin and high blood sugar are natural sedatives; so did I recognize this and start self medicating, or was the food response coached in; was it a recognition that food would make me larger, I just do not know. Memories abound; what is true and which are false, I have no clue. If it is a true memory, some of it must have indeed happened. Now I need to be able to deal with the nasty and negatives. Avoidance only goes so far.   


Sunday, July 9, 2017

Baises and eating

We tend to eat as we always have eaten, we ate pulled to it as a strong habit, an epicgenetic drive and a genetic drive with no satiation switch. We are the overeaters, regardless of the actual cause. Perhaps we are not busy enough. When we have no time to eat, it is easier perhaps to stay on a diet, or when there is no food to eat. We have refrigeration, and freezing as methods of preserving. We have supply side control of many products. There are no shortages of food. It is always in our faces. There is no escape.

The only solution is to be able to say no, and mean it, and to live it. That is the problem, the continual pressure to eat in excess, and the genetic drive. In addition, many of us were taught to reach for food first before feeling. That is just one more aspect that drives us toward food.

Our family relationships may also be an issue. The flying fish hook in the face, no more fishing for my own safety, with that person. Also the wild driver, and no letting her drive if I am in the vehicle. Then there is the continual negative outflow of verbal crap, just stop listening, stop caring, and avoid as much as is practical. There is the religious evangelizer, who does not stop, even though I have repeatedly said I am an atheist, there is no god, no supernatural, no after life. You are just living in your dreams. The only thing atheist have in common is a clear knowledge that there is no god and no supernatural, although we tend to be more reasoned. Keeping quite and letting the dervishes whirl becomes a way of life.

In overcoming overeating, we need to learn how to eat properly, but also how to live between meals without food, without social support, without creating resentment from other family members, and similar new things, new concepts and new behaviors. In the end it does not matter, we all just die anyway.


Monday, June 26, 2017

fingernails on chalk board

I learned about fingernails on chalk board in grade 7 from the Screech-halk, my teacher. She did both, dragged here fingernails on the chalk board and screeched in a similar tone. She struck fear into all of us. That was in 1960 ish.

Now there is an individual who does YouTube videos on food addiction that I would like to listen to, but am just unable to listen to, due to her voice, and to me it sounds like fingernails on chalk board.

GMO are raising there web presence. GMO are paying for trolls to put down any claims that GMO should be avoided, as they should be for your health, unless you do not want to be an unpaid lab-rat. Well, at least the protein parts, until they develop enough history, to be demonstrated not harmful to all. Monsanto has a corn that kills in South Africa, or so the story goes, before they silenced the opponent. Monsanto was good at silencing there opposition.  One more example...