Monday, March 5, 2018

addiction, food addiction

So food addiction is blind, deaf and driven. So some foods digest into opioid peptides and that is what drives food addiction. Back to beef and cabbage I guess.

There are a few good lines in this one:

“wanting system,” which regulates our cravings for things like food, sex, and drugs using signals based in the neurotransmitter dopamine. The wanting system has powerful control over behavior, and its cravings are insensitive to long-term consequences.  

His behavior is being controlled by a part of his mind that is not his true self.

addictive behavior is often initiated and maintained by the purposes it serves in someone’s life, often as self-medication for physical or psychological trauma. Nor am I saying that addictive behavior is compulsive, irresistible,

it lies somewhere in between choice and compulsion.

She is just faced with cravings that are far harder to resist.

but that she is unable to use this understanding to control her behavior

If the source of addiction is overly strong automatic cravings

The charioteer, Reason, tries his best to guide the chariot along the road of virtue. But his horse, Appetite, is stubborn, “deaf as a post” and may gallop off the road at any moment. “Chariot-driving in our case,” Plato concludes, “is inevitably a painfully difficult business.” If we take that to heart, maybe we will start giving the addicted what they need to get their lives back under control.

So there is no solution offered.... other than just do it and suffer the rest of your life. 

Thursday, February 22, 2018


Ayn Rand addressed long held beliefs of the US society and questioned them, abused them, and in the end turned some of them on their head. She was not a nice person. Some was part her, some was her first language thinking does not politely translate into a diplomatic conservation. She did not back down, and was often quite correct in her assessment. 

She beat altruism into the ground, and established that self interest is the best foundation for moral conduct, that and not making slaves of others or allowing us to make slaves of ourselves. Her morality stands up to Aristotle, the Stoics, Buddhist, Confucius, and beats our familiar Christian by a long stretch. It is rationally derived from reason, perceptions, self-interest and similar foundations.

It appears that some of our long held beliefs in regard to live, food, and similar are OCD tough, and are just wrong. So once we (I) understand and correct these misconception, will the problem reduce. So note this foolery going on, and ask, "how much of this bullshit is there in real life?", and conclude, enough to cause all sorts of problems. And statins, the crap the drug companies peddle.

And then there the silent scream of climate sciences. We cannot engineer ourselves out of that problem. It is too late. I expect that some of the obesity problem is climate change. We humans have a issue with overeating when we are tired. We get tired as we run out of oxygen, and as Co2 goes up, we get tired. So at 300, we were ok, 400 not so much. There is a correlation, but is there causation?    

Monday, February 19, 2018


Is there a relationship between the religion/philosophy and the general overeating issue we have in Canada/US? Being an atheist, I have kicked the supernatural parts, but is there still other values/concepts/behaviors that are part of the problem?

So the greatest vice we can have is allowing our mind to become unfocused. This implies that we should always be on. Well, how about when we are doing repetitive jobs? Yes. That is mindfulness. Thinking about what is important. OK. Thinking not eating. What is the digest thief of mindfulness? TV, radio, electronic background noise. Split attention.

So it take effort to stay focused.

Now how about all the virtues that we have been sold by religion. Altruism for example. Ayn Rand makes a good case for abandoning much of altruism. The highest value to my life is life it's self. That is not in doubt, so putting others in front of me is not right in traffic, for if I have the right of way, I should take it. I have seen others waste my time by giving up there right of way, and wasting my time. It is unsafe to proceed in front of a goof ball. So what is one to do? Objectitism, my objective is to live well myself, and let others take care of themselves. Do not allow slavery, or be part of being a slave. It is not right to give up the right of doing, nor to allow others to walk over me. I am the most important person to myself. If I do not look out for myself, who will?

So down with altruism, it is up to me to produce, and not be part of using others nor allowing me to be used... much. Enough. 

Tuesday, February 6, 2018

OCD Disinformation

A person with obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD) experiences irrational thoughts which create high levels of anxiety. They then engage in compulsive behaviours to gain temporary relief from these anxious feelings.

Wrong.  A high level of anxiety exist in the youth for whatever reason, a behavior reduces that anxiety, and that behavior becomes the compulsion. If the stress remains, obsession, wrong thinking remains, and it becomes a disorder when the non intended consequence become a problem.

I grew up isolated and mostly alone in a rural setting. My social skills were essentially non existent. At that time, we children were taken/sent to school in the spring for a few weeks before starting in grade one in the fall. As a child I was small, and when I went to school the first time, I was picked at. I vowed to grow big and end that, so I started eating, with the idea that if I ate, I would grow big, and could then beat up on my teasers/abusers. By grade one picture, I was obese, and still being picked at/on. The stress remained. The eating was OCD by then. I remained obese, or on a severe diet the remainder of my life, well until now anyway. 

Conventional wisdom holds:   "Cognitive-behavioral therapy is a treatment for OCD that uses two scientifically based techniques to change a person’s behavior and thoughts: exposure and response prevention (ERP) and cognitive therapy. CBT is conducted by a cognitive-behavioral therapist who has special training in treating OCD."  But there is a second treatment that when done is effective, well, as long as one does the treatment and that is the Schwartz method, which is more of a management of the problem method. The problem just keeps coming back, Schwartz is not a cure, but is an effective method of management. In that way, I can die with the issue, but not die of the issue, just as long as I have the motivation to do the method. With food it is not easy, as food is everywhere, and others keep pushing it in front of me. So that explains why I like to be a recluse.

Redirection is a big part of the treatment. We must keep busy doing other things. In the AA twelve step process, they provide many activities to keep on busy, all the while avoiding alcohol. Mind you, their whole program is based on the concept of a god, and some of us find that repulsive, as we know that religions also depend on gods, which there is absolute no evidence of.

So what is the solution? Perhaps to hold the body in a philosophy of stewardship.  We provide for it's needs, not for it's wants and keep it busy. The problem of body's desires, or lack of desire to do is a separate problem. Motivation or more likely, the lack of motivation is a big problem for everybody. Well, in the end we all just die anyway.


Sunday, January 14, 2018

Is Obesity a Moral Failing

Many people say yes. Many of the medical profession seem to hold that opinion. All the obese need do is eat less, and there problem will go away. Bullshit is the only logical response.

Obesity is a miserable existence in many ways. It is less miserable than going through life with hunger and/or cravings that never go away. Many obese effectively choose to deep cycle, live with sufficient food to relieve the hunger/cravings, and then diet hard, fast, starve for a period of time. What else can we do? Many of us obese suffer from uncontrolled hunger and/or cravings that never go away.

I was recently at a "Ethics discussion", which resembled more one person stating the why's of atheistic morals, with the inference that his view was correct with "enlightened self interest" as the foundation. That is ok for him, but I doubt that the foundation for most people. We recently saw a Pew Research that showed a majority of religious people held their view because they want to be or though of as "good people", whatever that may be. I think that I believe closer to the Stoic like, that it is always right to do right, and that I desire to do right, because that is the way I was taught... there is that learned behavior part. The big question is what do we think "right" might be.

The Stoic natural life by virtue, with the cardinal virtues, prudence or self control, wisdom, courage and justice, without future hope, or past regret, in the now of today without guilt is appealing. If there is wrong done, it is not by me. Virtue is the primary good, vice the primary evil, and everything else indifferents. Knowing that the path to personal happiness and inner peace is through extinguishing all desires to have or affect things beyond ones control; and, through living in the present without hope for or fear of the future; beyond the power of opinions of others is also appealing.

It is like the question some seniors face, with the lost of motivation. Is it a loss of motivation, or just loss of need, loss of desire, or the realization that nobody but us cares anyway? Or why should we care what a nasty thinks. What about those who do things that just aggravate others, and just turn nasty if anything is said. It comes down the expected response is just nasty, why care? A bad relationship may be less valuable than no relationship. That need some more consideration.

So perhaps there is a big portion of self interest in any any decision we make, without much enlightened in the self interest. But under the cover of all this is an unspoken concept that our beliefs are right, without regard to reality, and all the obese needs to do is stop eating for a period of time. People are slow to change their opinions, if ever, and most of those opinions are biased or just wrong. Oh well, in the end we all just die anyway, even in an overpopulated world.

Friday, January 5, 2018

Ah, the new year

Once again we are in the season of diet commercials, and food company, and chain restaurants adds. Soon it will be roll up the rim. Oh well, in the end we all just die anyway. So we are being picked at for overeating enough to become fat, and at the same time pestered to eat more. Well at least there is Youtube that is clear of food adds... well sometimes.

So what is there for us old low energy people to do in the winter? Well we can study and learn something more that has little value in the real world, but it can keep us busy. We can evaluate our society, and find it lacking or economically unsustainable, but that is not of concern, because we will shuffle off this mortal coil before we plunge into the economic abyss, iff (if and only if) the rate of growth holds steady at the current rate of acceleration. Sounds like Hubble'c constant of economics. And then all life will end as the universe over the visual horizon in planer existence, so space, unlike the earth is flat. Ah yes. That is iff the climate change or Co2 rise does not get us first. It is a bleak outlook knowing the truth, something that the religious are unwilling to look at, for that would demonstrate there wholly books are wrong, or wronger. (or should that be holly books).

Judge not lest you be judged. But judgement is how we make decisions, so is it some judgements or all that they recommend we do not do? Without judgement, one cannot question. Without questioning, we would be submissive followers of the book. Not that is not correct, judge and leave the idiots behind. They have the right to live as they wish, as long as they do not interfere with how other want to live. Ah but any 'true' christian will tell you that the bible is right and gays have no rights, but that is imposing their beliefs on others, and that is wrong at a fundamental level. So there will always be conflict with christians, and muslims, and most religions. But all religions have this fundamentally wrong attitude... except for the buddhists who do not prothletise, you have to go to them or their books. 

The buddhists say right knowledge, but never get around to saying what that is. The Stoic`s provide  the tools to determine what is right and what is not, based on a few underlying and stated assumptions. And those who do not agree with the underlying assumptions can do as they like, but the Stoic system had so many solutions worked out... and those with family wealth and/or power were not happy, because the Stoics reasoned that power required servants or slaves, someone who feared or respected the powerful, and the Stoics saw the solution, no servitude, no fear, and respect to those who earned and maintained respect, not respect for a title. The true Stoic could not be cohered, but had to be lead by actions of the leader.

At the root was natural laws of freedom and equality, but with compassion for the downtrodden. Not forgives, but compassion and justice for all. The Stoics understand some things are up to us and some are not; we should not be held responsible for things that are not up to us, but we are responsible for what is within our control, but we must be ready to bring back into our control what we can. We have the right to walk away from bad actors and those who are yappy, have personalities of rusty buzz saws, and other forms of assholes. We may also choose to hang on them, for even assholes have uses.

Friday, December 29, 2017

and we will soon be off, onto a new year

As this year draws toward a close, perhaps it is time to reflect on the past. Appetite is a physical thing, and is therefore beyond the control of the brain. When we fast, or on a deducing diet, regardless of the type of diet, we are likely unsatisfied. Lower carbohydrate may reduce the dissatisfaction for some. To low of carbohydrate content also also caused physical dissatisfaction for some. The brains' desire is quite a different matter.

In the matter of brain dissatisfaction, there is remarkably little of any value written on the correction of this issue. There is some in research language, but it is either research without anything that I understand as relevant or nothing that I can apply, or just beyond my simple understanding. Sam Harris demonstrated how little free will we actually have, and the Stoics said some things are up to us and some are not. We need to be the dog tied to the cart and the cart driver at the same time. Not easy to acheive. With 2/3 of the people obese in developed nations, what does that say about the state of affairs.

A 5, 7 or 9 point true/false or truth scale is a wonderful tool to add evidence to. Each bit of evidence or lack of evidence moves the mental pointer toward or away from the central neutral point. And in the end we have a probability thing. If there is no evidence, something has a substantial probability of being wrong or false.

Critical thinking is a wonderful tool, but it has its limits. Absolutism is also dangerous. Fracking operations can destroy aquifers; the method of distraction has to do with subsurface communications, and is often more correctly identified as well casing cementing failure, casing perforations, and uncased exploratory holes than the actual fracking operations. It may be the fracking that releases the gas though.  Vaccinations are generally safe, however there are antidotes that suggest this is untrue. These are often associated with early vaccinations, and that may be the real danger. Introducing chemicals before the brain has formed may be the cause of autism, as autism is a brain structural issue. There are no studies that show no damage from too early of vaccinations. These two examples are often used by promoters of critical thinking but are aborted by absolutism.

The global warming, over world population are real, but we may get a reprieve on the critical nature by a mini ice-age due to solar cycles. Anyone who does not accept climate change is not dealing with the truth. Trump may wish to ignore reality and try to reap the profits rather than deal with the problem, but this will severely bite the US in the future. We say this with Hunter Harrison reaping the profits on the CP and CN rail lines, and the subsequent rebuilding required.


Monday, December 25, 2017

and a merry christmas to all

Just to wish you a merry christmas, happy new year, and/or what ever you celebrate this time of year. We have passed the solstice, the days are getting longer, spring will come, and life is good.

Several blogs have there best book of the year reviews out, but I will simply list the book that had the most impact on my life this year: Donald Robertson; The Pphilosophy of Cognitive - Behavorial Therapy.

During the reading of this book it became clear to me that all religion are just the sum of the past beliefs, and the sum of the decisions of those who are dead. The book does not suggest this, but it was during my reading of this that that obvious belief came to me. It points out so many historical sources of concepts; I had to look up a few of these in more detail. It clears away some more wrong beliefs. It became clear that all religions just fill up time with useless fiction. It is that displacement of time that has value to we humans who live in a time of excess, when all of our time is not used to obtain what we need for survival. Our mental time exceeds our physical time. Full stop. What? When we run out of physical energy, we still have mental energy left. Exhausted physically, but mentally aware, we need something to think about. Religion provides that, as does reality, or anything else. Religion took a run at teaching, but the subject matter is no longer of value as it has not been upgraded. Oh well, religions could be studied as historical myth systems. Anthropologist like studies in some cases.

Going forward from here, reality is all that matters.

After knowing what food one should eat, and what to avoid, and approximate quantities, the issues of doing that remain. And then there is all the other time that must be used. Retirement has freed up much time, as has letting go of the time sucking concepts of religion. Now that I understand what time sucks religions and religious thinking is. Now I have time, and little interests to fill that time. And limited physical ability, motivation, desire, energy, what ever is really short in the process of turning it into action or time filling pursuits that are driven. Action with no utility, beyond burning time, just does not cut it much.

The concept of time burning utility-less activity just does not appeal to me much. Understanding one more thing, say the evaluation of Eulers constant e, or wau, F, is just not moving me much. I spent much of my working life evaluating physical properties, some of which are system properties that change as a function of time, moisture content, stress history, structure development, chemical cementing, and all those weird and wonderful thing that happen in one off design and construction or geology formations. I have dealt with many theories that in reality are so wrong. Like pavement modulus, which is not a soils property but a system property. The equations need a constant pavement modulus, when in reality the value is space-time-rate dependent variable. In Engineering, everything needs to be reduced to simple usefulness, and simple enough that understanding all the inputs is not required.

We see "engineering design" utilizing programs that the designer does not understand how it works, but has nice input and output forms; some have crap models hiding inside, but nobody cares. It is quick and simple, and sort of works, except when it does not, and then much of the time it was close enough anyway. There was no longer any satisfaction in the engineering, it was just about making money. It is all done with, now, for me anyway. It is time to go forward into something new... or old.

Thursday, December 14, 2017

In search of dopamine

In search of dopamine

Is all overeating beyond that to remove acute hunger actually a response to a biochemical desire for more dopamine?

That is what Lustic's book, Hacking of the (Yanky) Mind suggests. Well, it implies that, with a few twists. It is the biochemical reactions that drive feelings, the chemistry leads the thought, or the feeling, or releases the eating machine. It does not take much food to take away acute hunger, but it takes a great deal more, too much, to stop the eating machinery. That is the problem. It is the drive for dopamine that must be satisfied. At the same time, serotonin must also be replaced. Stress of any kind causes cortisol to be released, and that is a dopamine antagonist and a serotonin antagonist.

So you or anyone can believe any kind of odd shit you like, and do what ever bat shit you like, but that is not my concern... well it should not be. But yet it bothers me to see people who obviously believe something that is wrong... and are not willing to examine their beliefs. It is non of my business, yet it bothers me. There is one absolute right; all else is wrong, is a belief that I have that is likely correct, yet so many do not believe that either. The society we (I) live in is essentially Orwellian, they believe what they are being told by the groundnut, or the "authorities have jurisdiction", politicians, or religious leaders. There are those of us who have examined the beliefs, and have different views, but... little influence. Society changes one mind at a time. We are on the verge of a major change, in the next half century or so.  

So you have the right to believe garbage. That is your right, and I struggle with that, and I must give up that desire to correct others. It is like arguing with some idiot on the internet, that does not want to know the truth. Why should I care? Even when they are family. I need to get on with my life, right or wrong. Family will just need to resolve their own issues.


Thursday, December 7, 2017

Truthisms or trueisms

Truthisms are statement that are true or sort of true, but are found lacking in some respect. an example may be the typical 'existence of gods', that is to say the believer thinks it is true, but when one goes through the logic, using evidence as the basis, it cannot be true unless god is just a concept, an idea, or the result of free floating rationales. This is not the result that the religious want, so they often apply a "beyond space and time" line, which upon inspection, leaves just concepts, or the environment that only concepts occupy. Oh well. It is just a truthism.

One more is the "to lose weight, eat less and move more". Which in the long run may be mathematically correct but it is useless in the application. It ignores the fact that we animals are biochemically driven with little actual free will. But the medical field is what it is, a knowledge industry that only has some of the answers, there is much that they do not know.

Another trueism is to make money buy at low price and sell at high. Anyone who has tried to apply this to something like farming know that survival is often just luck, along with doing the right thing some of the time. Doing the right thing does not result in success some of the time.

Of late we have seen the opioid issues and all those who become addicted due to pain medication, and then the medical profession lays the blame on those biochemical units that do not use as directed, not accepting that we have little free will. We may also need help with addiction recovery, especially when we have been addicted in the past. Use as directed is a medical trueism, and should be seen as one. The drug companies, both domestic and foreign, are making money off  these synthetic opioids, and are over promoting there use. We humans cannot live pain free, or pain reduced. We must suffer, especially at the hands of the medical industry, if we wish to abuse ourselves, and remain active. It is the over promotion of  these youth forever concepts that cause many of our problems.

My father always cautioned many around him to be cautions with our bodies, but nobody listened. He managed to walk to the end, but not too much, and all those around him suffered in old age with hip problems, as had his ancestors, and most of my ancestors on both sides. What change do I have?

A life of chronic pain is what many of us have. In my case, first psychological chronic pain, later back and now hip. Chronic pain is just chronic pain, regardless of the cause. Not being able to deal with a irrational situation in youth is not much different than as a senior. There is no solution, other that just ignoring it, as best as we can. Life is suffering until death. Oh well, in the end we just die anyways.

Wednesday, November 8, 2017


Generally considered as safe is one of the GMO issues. It has GCAS has history; every new cross breed plant through history has been treated as such. It has been considered safe until proven otherwise.

GCAS is questionable process when we start gene splicing and the like. We humans are being used as lab rats, unknowing that we are being used as lab rats. If we are going to consider consent, informed consent, qualified for consent, able to provide consent, etc, GMO must be labeled so that we may choose. It a drunk adult is unable to provide consent, then the uninformed is also unable to consent. If we are going to worry about the ability of a wined up lady's ability to consent, then we also must worry about hidden dangers in the food supply and GMO labeling.

GMO were toughed as increasing yields, but I have not seen any evidence of that. I have seen evidence of tougher life for farmers, but now they need big acres to succeed or fail. Small part time operations just do not work. It is now apparent that food and/or water will not be the limit to human population, the ability of the earth to handle Co2 is. End a sentence with a verb, OK. This means that small subsistence farms, and seasonal employment may be the way to go, but what do I know?

Some of the GMO products have been health concerns. There was the South African corn with spider gene spliced it that killed off the heavy eaters of the corn, the poor laborers that mainly ate corn did not live to to see the second crop due to neurological issues. The farmers has no labors to put in a second crop. OH well. Then there was the cotton stubble that was toxic to cows, they could not carry calf's to term if they grazed on stubble. All of course unproven. The evidence is not conclusive, the chemical analysis has not been done to prove, but the products were withdrawn. No proof, no liability. No money to prove is just reality.

So labeling get out of the lab rat, no informed consent issue, and product withdraw of seriously flawed products is all fine. What about the current wheat issue with the product being good for growing, but the product has food addiction issues, as it contains opioid peptides?


Tuesday, November 7, 2017

Primer on Sugar
copied so it does not disappear 

Sugar vs Carbohydrate – what’s the difference?

The story for this week was inspired by a tweet by someone with whom I’ve written a couple of academic papers: Dr James DiNicolantonio. James tweeted about his latest paper, published in BMJ Open Heart (Ref 1), but it was the graphic in the tweet that caught my eye. The graphic was a representation of the amount of sugar in a number of different foods, but with the sugar content represented as cubes of sugar.
The bottom left hand corner of the graphic reported the source as “Leo Delauncey/MailOnline”, but the picture had no label to describe exactly what was being illustrated. It made me wonder – is that added sugar, free sugars, or carbohydrate? What’s the difference anyway? This proved to be a really enlightening issue to explore.
We need to start with a quick description of carbohydrates (you will soon start to wonder what’s the difference between sugar and carbohydrates). Then we need to sort out sugar, added sugar, free sugars etc and then we will be able to answer the question: what are the sugar cubes supposed to represent and are they a fair reflection of the actual sugar content of each food shown?
What are carbohydrates?
Carbohydrates can be divided into three categories: monosaccharides; disaccharides and polysaccharides. Saccharide comes from a Greek word meaning sugar. Mono means one; di means two and poly means many, so...
Monosaccharide means one sugar. The three most common monosaccharides are:
-  Glucose (found commonly in fruit and grains);
-  Fructose (found commonly in fruit);
-  Galactose (found commonly in milk).
Disaccharide means two sugars. The three most common disaccharides are:
-  Sucrose (one molecule of glucose and one of fructose) – what we know as table sugar;
-  Lactose (one molecule of glucose and one of galactose) – what we know as milk sugar;
-  Maltose (two molecules of glucose) – less well known as malt sugar.
Polysaccharide means many sugars. Polysaccharides come in digestible and indigestible forms. The digestible forms of polysaccharides are:
-  Glycogen. This is the form in which animals (including humans) store energy – in the liver and muscles in the body. Glycogen is made up of thousands of glucose molecules.
-  Starch. This is the form in which plants store energy – as in grains, pulses, potatoes and root vegetables. Starch is made up of thousands of glucose molecules.
The indigestible forms of polysaccharides are collectively called fibre. Fibre contains sugars linked by bonds, which cannot be broken down by human enzymes, and are therefore deemed indigestible. There are two forms of fibre:
1) Insoluble fibre (which does not dissolve in water). This includes cellulose, hemicellulose and lignin. Cellulose can be found in whole-wheat flour, bran, and vegetables. Hemicellulose can be found in bran and whole grains. Lignin is a woody fibre found in wheat bran and the seeds of fruits and vegetables;
2) Soluble fibre (which dissolves, or swells, in water). This includes pectins, mucilages, and gums. These substances are not broken down by human enzymes, but instead can be fermented by bacteria in the large intestine. Pectin can be found in apples, strawberries and carrots. (Because it absorbs water and forms a gel, it is often used in jams and jellies). Mucilages and gums are similar in structure. Sources of gums include oats, legumes (beans, peas), guar and barley.
The key fact to remember is that, during digestion, all carbohydrates need to be broken down into monosaccharides (simple sugars) to be absorbed. This means that all digestible carbohydrate either is, or breaks down into, sugar.

Sunday, November 5, 2017


We humans have a problem; we have become addicted to our food supply. Trace chemicals may not be the cause, it may be higher carbon dioxides cause higher amount of carbohydrate to be fixed in grains, and plant starches, and the concentration is high enough that we have become addicted to sugar or fructose more likely, that gives us a dopamine rush and that is what we are addicted to. It may be that it is trace chemicals effecting the endorphin reward paths, opioid censors, or adrenaline censors. Either way, to survive, some of must learn to kick the food habit... again.   So I will light a candle to ease my future passing.

Friday I ran into an old fellow now, someone who "had a piece" of the same company as I for for many years, but I left before he did. I did come back for "contracts" later, and for a while as an employee, but the fun was gone. The industry changed, and it was no longer fun. We are both retired, and bored... well not bored, not interested in doing much, even disinterested in life's pleasures, or the like. For some of us retirement is not a good thing, but we could not continue on either. Most of our cohort have died off already, and but we are young for seniors. I just do not want to sit around and talk to other seniors about the old days. I need to do something but I hurt in so many places... and do not want to do anything that is going to make the pain worse... I can understand those that become addicted to opioid pain medications, then take to street drugs, when the legal but addicting supply runs out. Damn drug companies and medical industry... for ever starting the thought, belief... that so many have... that we can be pain free in life. Another false belief to let go of... end sentence with a proposition, just because that is the way I think. We all just die in the end anyway.

So on with the remainder of my life, and to understand and perhaps beat this food addiction... perhaps a worthy pursuit. Sugar, primarily fructose, is addicting... we have it in abundance now. That is the two essentials of addiction, addicting and available at a price. When it is affordable... cheap, it just becomes a problem. That is one, but there is a second... opioid addiction, from the grain and dairy, or perhaps we became addicted to opioid otherwise, and then the wheat and dairy provided a trace... I am not sure. It may be multiple factors. So the plans are obvious... abstinence. Get off and stay off.

Obvious like the sun going around the earth, or the moon going around the earth. Why one without the other? Oh well, some thing are just wrong.

So overeating is just a mental thing, driven by biochemistry. It is up to the logical part of us to stop it. Until we stop, we will be unable to stop. And it is everywhere. Taper down and avoid like the plague. again.


Thursday, November 2, 2017

Diabetes Unpacked

by Prof Tim Noakes and Jason Fung MD

I have started to read this book. So far, it has been a updating of everything that I believe to be true, but it is good to see these things in print. 

Monday, October 30, 2017

Craving Change

I completed the Craving Change workshop that has been put on by Primary Care, where the dietician suggested much good stuff, but never really addressed cravings like I have. There were some thinking models, all of which are incomplete. It was a reminder of how fucked up our current culture is, and how far I have regressed from our current culture in my thinking about food.

She introduced a concentric circle model of the reasons for eating, but I think it is correct, but not in the correct order. The primary is energy, but out from that should be a biochemical ring, for those that eat because of excess insulin, lack of leptin signaling, recalling that high insulin blocks leptin signaling, and therefore lower carbohydrate, therefore lower insulin is required for weight loss.

The next should involve a change in thinking, a change in beliefs, to some form of eating small three or four times in the day, regardless of hunger. This change in beliefs, and subsequent required action is the portion that I have been struggling with these last years, with attached weight gain. This was totally absent from the model.

Along with the foregoing, there is a related biochemical ring, that of the cortisol, serotonin, dopamine struggle going on in the brain. Cortisol and excitement drive eating, as does dopamine. Too much brain stimulus... drive both ends of the three brain chemical dance, only satisfaction and contentment, aka not struggling is neutral in the drive to eat. Anything we do drives eating, it is the absence of effort that must accompany sustained weight loss. That is not made clear. Taking on weight loss as a job is fine for weight loss and regain cycle; that is what is promoted. There is little psychological information available about life between the cycles of loss/gain. That is what is missing from society, as it exists today. I am only concerned with this life today, that is all we have.

Outside those rings are environment, emotional, social, availability, issue rings. Food addiction, and behavioral addiction to eating are not considered, yet we know that these are real and often the driving force in overeating. These mask learned behaviors that forced epicgenetic changes, reinforcing the driving of overeating. Staying away from food pushers is easier than resistance in their presence. That explains much of the problem.

The solution is understanding the problem and changing my core beliefs to something else from what society has trained into me. Many foods are poisons. Food pushers must be avoided. Do not take to much food. I need more carbs than the LCHF people to avoid the chemical/liver craving, but not many.

Thursday, October 19, 2017

I feel a change coming on

Changes are coming. To what, I am not sure. But an early part of any change is letting go of the past behavior/ actions, and perhaps doing something else.

Cognitive therapy, as describe has three loci: thinking, behavior, and emotions. Yet when I look at my cognitive process in meditation, there are four parts: thinking, behavior, emotions, and beliefs. Attach the body and we have the Buddhist five aggregates. Cognitive therapy ignores beliefs, yet that is the easiest to change, the fastest to change, and perhaps the most unforgiving part of the thinking processes. When I adopted the belief that wheat has no place in the human diet, wheat and wheat products stopped being part of my diet, yet I still find I consume wheat as a filler in sausages, or did. Yet no wheat is a belief, not just thinking. Beliefs are thoughts that we do not question, they are givens, and are not yielding to pressure the same way a thought is. Perhaps this is a distinction without a difference, or not. But there is a distinction, for when eating something is considered to be not even possible, the problem just goes away.

Some retired persons can simply go home, sit down and do nothing, watch TV etc. Spend no money, and be happy doing nothing. Not I. I need thing to do, things to think about, places to go, and the like. I do not need other people much; they are just drags on my freedom. I cannot express many things without creating offense, so I keep silence, and just go away. I like to be right, and know that I am right, more or less. But I need to be active at something that I enjoy, or at least can tolerate. There are many things that I do not like, and other things that I cannot do because of interference from others, who shall not be named, but she who must be obeyed.

Opinions as these are not popular, but once we have them, what do we do? The world is overpopulated when we use Co2 level as a guideline. This guideline influences how I feel about the third world, and the US. The logic is indisputable, as is there is absolutely no evidence of any god, but masses of evidence that people have long held a "belief of god(s)".

Pushing of gods and/or religion onto seniors seems to be in fashion at all the local seniors centers. I just find such behavior to senior abusive.

But if we consider the senior abuse line, they listen but do nothing, as in the case of my brother in law. The natives harasser him, but the RCMP will do nothing. I offered to let him live here, but he does not want to leave the town. He did put his house up for sale, but the town has become native, and is a dyeing Saskatchewan small town, so sale will be slow. Oh well, he is of the wife's family and was among the "comes with."  The town has lots for sale for 100$ if you are willing to build within one year. His old house is just that, old, but functioning. He has stopped paying taxes also, because the natives are getting is money first, but he is unable to say no to the beggars/harassers. Oh well, it is his life.

So here is the coming change perhaps:

If obesity is largely psychological, and we are being influenced by opioid peptides in food, are the cravings that I feel just the driving force of opioid addiction, and the hunger of not eating just normal hunger from not eating? So I am left with two driving forces, hunger and opioid addiction.

So opioid peptides in food are from wheat, dairy products. Ground meat products often contain both milk proteins and wheat filler. So then I am left with solid meat and vegetables as before.

I know this to be true, but am as yet unsure how to apply it unless I am gone from home most of the time. I cannot not eat and sit at home, but I have little choice but to sit at home. My right hip is in too bad of condition to just walk, and archer is OK for a few hours, but that is the extent of my pain endurance. Oh well, in the end we all just die anyway.


Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Let the dervishes whirl

Societal Change

Is it a process or does it just evolve? The internet has grown, first by a plan, and then it was set free with many people adding to the system, without much control... just like well, a weed, but it has purpose and use and value; yet there is much bullshit masquerading as real and valuable. But the growth rate is far faster than societal change, yet these two are so similar.

When we start to analysis the content, we immediately see in both, the width of the "bullshit bands", for the lack of a better way to describe the volume of false and questionable information, flowing in both systems. Bullshit has now a definition; stuff that nobody cares if it is truthful or not, just about the volume. Loud and big, bold, and runs over reality and truth.

Ultimately, it is all about cleaning the garbage from our minds. Obesity is about wrong beliefs about what should be eaten an why. It is also about eating less than our physical body demands. Recovery is all about learning how to reach satiation, with less food than we would like. It is learning to starve ourselves down to "normal" weight, and maintaining that biochemical state, not allowing enough food to enter the body as the body would like, while knowing that usually the biochemistry wins. But all those who think it is personal choice please leave the building and fuck off forever. We are just responding to the biochemistry, and if your biochemistry does not have this problem, you have no right to criticize those of us who have over excited hormones. The biochemistry always wins.

Within society there is wrong information, and finding and removing that information is a big part of life growth. Religion is all wrong, as it is based on a wrong concept. So what is to be believed? Politics is questionable, sports... well it is entertainment and a bit of "professional",aka, they make money off it, and then there is the recreational exercise... which we all need exercise... if we do not get it at work. But when the pain starts, it screws everything.

Society needs to change, one person at a time. It is us that must change, and let the world flail about. But what is society, and what is entertainment business profit driven promotion, all above society, but not really part of society? and what of those people caught in the spin of the political / marketing business machinery, entertainment creation bullshit generation machine? Let the dervishes whirl overhead.